my crippling anxiety has once again forced me to make an impulsive decision I feel guilty about since I can’t blend in with normal humans and I should “grow up” but at the same time I laugh at how fast I can manage to just drop everything going on and be like “fuck it bye”

I’m like kinda fine with at this point because the worst that can happen is like I get a monetary consequence or just look like an asshole but I’m in my early 20s I’m supposed to be an asshole anyway right

and let me tell you I’m at the point where I’ll take any opportunity to put myself in debt no matter how cheap I am just to not encounter certain situations that fill me with panic and make a bitch feel like she’s gonna DIE

I haven’t been to jail and I don’t do hard drugs. I’m a pretty decent young adult and at least I’m trying so if my biggest incidents happen to be that my anxiety makes me cower like a sand crab then shit I’m gonna scurry my lil happy ass all over cus at least I give a shit about my own well being not to torture myself anymore like I would use to